My First Cigarette

During the early morning of this day, something trajic occured in the life of my closest friend in Wellington...
A 4 year blooming flower has just been sliced off... under mutual agreement...

After work at our respective restaurants and getting home to Cumberland together...
Upon reaching the glass sliding doors, he told me to go up first, i was reluctant & suspicious...
i asked why...
in his dismay he took out a pack of cigarettes...
lighted one... and broke a 10 months & 2 days record of not smoking since his 7 year smoking chain.

I waited for the other smokers to finish & leave before i said anything...
"What's wrong? tell me..." i insisted even thou he tried a few times to evade the topic...
there was something broken inside of him that was hidden bt somehow apparent to me...

Upon further prodding, he finally confessed...
right then at that moment, i knew that i needed to show him a gesture of my support...
i dropped the books in my arms and reached out an empty hand...

"Give me one... i cant let u go through this alone... I must smoke with you!"
He tried to discourage me... but my resolve was unbreakable...
soon he handed me my very first cigarette & a lighter...
And i learnt to smoke... for the first time ever in my life... breaking a promise i made to myself a long time ago...

There is ntg i wont do for this brother...
Im with him...
even though we dont see eye to eye in many many aspects...
I know one thing we will not forsake...
Each Other's Moment of Need.

Comments

  1. Do you think that is a wise thing to do? What do you think He would have done?

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  2. Well, a bold move u took, i applaud ur move to b with ur friend in times of trouble, but u broke ur promise u had kept ur whole life. Man, must b hard 4 u.

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  3. Hey I know your intentions are great bro... there are better ways to lead your friend. Ways you can show him.

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  4. You have a really big heart for you friends, and it is rare to find a person like you who is willing to stand with your friend when their world is falling apart. But I don't see how by your actions will encourage your friend to break from his habit. Perhaps the reverse psycological way, which is making him feel responsible for making you break a vow which was once precious to you. I don't know cause I wasn't there.

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  5. Jarod, do think about those who love you, your family, your closest friends, even Jesus himself. What do you think goes on their mind when they see you take that puff? Think about it for a sec.

    I know it doesn't mean that by the first puff you're gonna get hooked. Just be careful ok. I had an addiction to alcohol from the very first sip I took.

    Just concerned for ya.

    J

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  6. i believe you know what you are doing...

    but as ur frends all advised: do practice cautious, wisdom and discernment :)

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  7. mmmm...as long as he is with me he won't get addicted to anything...ask guna bout it...no sweat...neway thanks bro..now i know y u asked 4 the cigarette...thanks BRO

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  8. To Gabe:
    I cant b absolutely sure that i did the right thing...
    but i knew wad i had & wad i cud giv..

    I know tat u r trying to say tat i shud hav found another way.
    perhaps there were other ways...

    bt i hada choice..
    & i made a choice to do wad i cud..
    i did wad i tot wud help my friend the most, from the years we hav spent together...

    what's done is done...
    & i take full responsibility for my actions.

    anyway, if there were better ways...
    do post them so that i may learn & apply.

    To Ethan:
    it wasnt hard...
    i knew wad was more important...

    To J:
    i dont know wad others will think...
    honestly i dont care wad other ppl think...
    im sick & tired of thinking wad others wud think of me if i do wadeva...
    they can judge me all they want...

    i only care about wad my God, who doesnt condemn, will think...
    & wad my fren, in need, thinks...
    & i wasnt there to manipulate him with reverse psychology or wadeva...
    i was there to support him...
    stand with him...
    suffer with him...

    I can proudly say that i escaped from the ordeal unattatched to the substance...
    My friend too...

    Plus I have come out from the experience more enlightened about it's existance in this world...
    I know more now...

    To glo:
    Im really touched by ur faith in me...

    U are truly a person of blessing who gives freely as you recieve.
    U also have the gift to reach the unreachable & show them the way...

    To "Brother":
    I dont think that i will get addicted to cigarettes...
    I dont hava need inside my heart to smoke...

    All my needs hav been covered by the blood of Jesus...
    Therefore, I do not have the ability in me to crave these substances...
    I will only be able to hunger for more of God's presence...

    Love you, bro.

    To Those Who Cared to Comment:
    I am really grateful to have friends like u who care enuf to post a comment & critique my methods...

    You are an awesome bunch who care for me & dun wana see me get hurt...
    I really appreciate you very very much...

    My method was not totally right because i was putting myself in danger...
    but it seemed righteous at the moment...

    I didnt want him to be smoking all alone in his pain...
    I smoked with him to assist his release of pain...
    My gesture was a gesture of love...

    I cud hav talked to him about accepting Jesus but i felt that the time was not yt right...
    However, I do see a vision of him worshipping an amazing & loving God...
    that time will come...
    bt God has got to reveal Himself to him first...
    & he shall run to Him...

    Im glad i left unscratched and enlightened!
    =)

    How Much Are You Willing To Give?

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  9. i'm proud of u bro.

    sometimes to go indepth requires us to come out from our comfort zone.

    we should really have a chat sometime. u know? iron sharpens iron?


    cheers bro

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  10. To Jason:
    Ya man...
    Long time no sembang liao...
    One day we go angkat kopi at ur workplace la! =)

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  11. I'm proud of your comment. :)

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  12. Seriously felt more relieved after reading your replies. I'm glad you know what you're doing. And by the way, I didn't mean to say to act to please others. Please don't get me wrong. It's just that sometimes, the closest ones to you know you well enough to correct you. I hope your friend is alright too, back to his vow to control his smoking habit.

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  13. Sometimes, it's also not by sharing verbally about Jesus that will help. I'm very sure God will have his way of using you to show love to your friends, and they will see Christ in you. :)

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  14. God is with us, His embassadors!
    We shall make a difference!
    We are the centre of the ripple!
    =)

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  15. hey! u did te right thing man! lols.

    seriously, if i am in ur shoes, i would do te same thing like u did.

    tat's wat we call true friend: be there for each other on te ups and downs. It's not easy, but it's simple~ :)

    how i wish i cud fly there once again joining u guys.

    God Bless u.

    u did te rite thing

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